I hope everyone has had a great first week of 2017. I do and don't do resolutions...but I think it's hard to not want to do better when a new year arrives. It really is a big reset button if you want it to be. 2017 is the year I want to really focus and also take care of myself.
I realized that I have struggled a little over the last few years. It hasn't been constant or very prominent, so I kind of just chalked it up to some major life events: third deployment, huge life change with no longer being a military family, moving, buying our first house, having a third child, etc. Over the past 9 months or so, it has definitely gotten worse. And it has gone hand-in-hand with some anxiety I'm dealing with that again, I have always had a bit of anxiety, but nothing that was all-consuming by any means. The last 9 months have really been rough for me.
The last 2 months in particular have been a day-to-day battle. I finally broke down on Sunday and went to the emergency room, afraid I was having another bout of tachycardia/afib, afraid I wasn't going to come back home, etc. Honestly, I can rationalize that all of this is an overreaction and that I'm 100% okay, but it doesn't stop the panic. I got to the ER and they gave me Ativan and did some bloodwork and an EKG. All was good and well. I went to my regular doctor today and we've laid out a plan. I'm am hoping to be in to see a therapist/counselor soon.
2017 is the year that I will turn around the depression and anxiety that has been slowly creeping into my world for the last 3 or 4 years. And if you are battling depression and/or anxiety, you got this. 2017 is going to be your year too!
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